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not really LJ isn't the #1 thing on my list. The other night, it was changing the pickup in my cheapy cheapy epi SG 310 from the stupid distorted lame stock pickup it had to a nice and shiny Seymour Duncan (used alnico pro II neck). I bought down in at a guitar shop in Daytona a week ago. We went downt to see my sister, Christina, get married. People who read her lj know that we were in desperate need of a vacation anyways.

The Wedding was nice, short and sweet. I got to see relatives I haven't seen in almost a decade. A lot of it reminded me of my issues growing up with devout family members. Courtney got to meet them though, and they like her. I kept on getting nagged about when we're getting married.

Honestly I'm still looking for a good way to make a ceremony without all the nasty traditions. I don't want courtney's father to walk her down the aisle. I'm not buying her from him. It was by the grace of her mother that I was able to survive the first month we were together after all. I want to make a new thing that properly represents what kind of couple we are and celebrates how we work so well and what we've done through our partnership. If there is one thing I've learned about this universe, it's that nothing lasts forever.

Aside from that, we had fun in Daytona. My parents seem to be doing okay and I got guitar stuff. We hung out with my sister quite a bit.

We went to the mall at some point and found this.  I think it's an example of what not to do when making a work of art. In this case ignoring the overall posture of the focus in relation to it's surroundings.  I call this "Quick! Apostles! Jesus from flying away!"


most obviously, who the hell crucifies somebody to a cliff side?

I wanted to work on music today one way or another, but there was a bike race outside distracting me. Mark called up and he suggested I sample it. So did, this was the result

Even If there was such a thing, it's best to live as though there weren't.  We are most productive when we are convinced on our autonomy.  Even if our choices can be broken down into a form of determinism, acting on that notion only keeps you from making choices you only would have made in ignorance.

Super Metroid without a doubt
in fact I can wake up tomorrow, beat it in two hours with 98% in one go.  Sometimes, I do just that when I have enough spare time.

does anybody get worse? I'm sorry

True Love Totally exists.  Courtney and I victims of it.  True Love is only as true as two people are willing to make it.  Asking if True Love exists really is more like asking "Is there such a thing as a good cake?" obvious answer being yes if you know how to make it.  In Disney Fairy tale land, the love one another overcomes all, I have to say this much is true under one condition, that both (or all) parties work to keep it true.  One might say that "If you have to work at it, doesn't that mean it's untrue since True Love ought to work unconditionally?"  my answer would be that yeah, true can be unconditional, but there is a lot to be considered with that.

1. Unconditional love is very hard to maintain. People change over time, and every person develops different likes and dislikes as months/years/decades go by.  For love to be true, you have to keep it true by listening to your partner and refuse to be deluded and expect the same out of them
2. Listening and learning is the most import thing.  As I've just mentioned, one must listen to the other so that he/she continually learns from his/her partner to adapt to changes.  You can't live in a fantasy land in which things are going to be the same forever.  It's utterly dilusional to believe so, and ignorant to realize that the only thing that stays the same in this world is that nothing stays the same.
3. Love (no matter what form) is as true as two (or more) people can make it.  If you Chose to live a lie and believe that whoever the one your with is your "true love" then you are lying to yourself.  Stay Honest with yourself, stay honest with your partner(s) and that love couldn't be any more real.

a functioning brain

This Project has been long past due, it needs to be done, and I'm doing it.
( 12 week plan )

All three imply that I have expectations of the universe. If anything that could be said is true, it's that one cannot expect anything from reality.

Early December, courtney and I decided to it'd be best to be frugal in 2009. We were committed to this notion even more so when I lost my job at Pizza slut do to (of all things) tardiness. in two weeks I became employed again (at a mcdonalds)

Well it didn't last that long really, I've spent a LOT of money on gear this year by our standards, and I plan on spending $150 a month from this point on in music equipment.

There is a 4x12" guitar amp cabinet at the local music shop that has sat there for a year, and the price has dropped to $150. It's from a brand name that nobody knows about: "sonic". The owner didn't have any amp heads in stock so Mark (the owner of the shop) and I jerry rigged it to a Peavey combo amp (100W that wasn't that great sounding to begin with). This cabinet turns out to be BEEFY. I mean like medium rare, juices only coming out when it's tender solids are being so softly squeezed. It made the peavey sound 100x better. when I get the cash I'm so getting it.

Dave finally coughed up the cash to buy his computer. If the UPS guy gets there by Two, I'm assembling it, if not I'm just going to make sure all the parts are there since I go to work at Five in which case I'll set it up friday morning.
This is extremely awesome. Once up and running, we can collaborate more often on music and he can get the practice he needs to write more stuff. He still needs a studio sound card. I think I might get him this which according to musicians friend is literally the next best thing to what I have (M-audio 1010lt delta)

I've discovered that my cheap ass Epiphone sounds really good in drop B (google it bitches)

also I win at Foccacia

Seriously, you put Hanna Montana with Woodstock? This is as much of an answer you're getting out of me

I love my fiance so much

fashion!

Last Sunday, All three of us in Left to Question wrote a new song.  This one dave directed (my vocalist) ended up sounding really dark (not in a bad way).  He stopped by today to work on it some more.  We spent a ton of time working on his vocal effects.  neither of us are very versed in each others styles.

today stood out though.  For once things went smoothly because we trusted each other and were unassuming of one another.  I feel that this is all going in the right direction.  now I have to bounce this version off mark.  We've already set aside a spot for him to record his solo.

trust was always something the both of us took for granted.  It feels good to actually have all of us move forward in exploratory creativity

me: So all of your melee attackers use thousand needles on flying enemies? (FF12)
courtney: yep, all of the distance attackers just use there weapons
me: they should make a version for 4chan users called NINE THOUSAND needles!
courtney: don't you mean 9000 penises?

I bought a guitar to help me write.  I think I might keep it but I have my acoustic too.  But I'm at the point now, where I don't think I need the guitar to help me write.  In fact, it's make it harder because I keep on making two guitar compositions (rhythm & lead).   Seeing that in my cover band I do well for the rhythm section with just one lead guitarist, I'm now working on my sound for Left to Question in a way that gives the music more dimension when compared to your standard amped guitar rock that we've been doing.  The real hard part is figuring out a way to make the songs sound big with just a bass and a lead.  I'm thinking a combination of dynamic filters controlling the fuzz distortion of the bass.  I'll work something groovy out with practice.  I just need to invest the money into a bass effects pedal of some sort.

Also, I think after all this time of frustration and hurt, I think I might finally be developing some emotional intelligence.  I've gone through many stages and phases to get here, but I finally feel like I can be happy when I want to be without losing me cool.  I can now react to most things intelligently and gracefully and it feels good.

The recent wave of Joy Division nostalgia is a strange irony given the brick wall the economy has hit. For it is a nostalgia for a time when art was more intense - and life less opulent. When Control came out last year it coincided with the Frieze art fair and I remember thinking, how weird - all this romanticism about an artist who lived like Vincent van Gogh in contrast to the art of today that's all success, success, success. It's not just Curtis. In the 70s and 80s many of the same talents that now head straight for art galleries would have formed bands. Those bands were real cultural revolutionaries. Their art was soulful and radical. Is the great age of contemporary British culture the time when you could see Siouxie and the Banshees in a dilapidated town hall, or the era when people gawp at Marc Quinn's work in the British Museum?

Art booms during a bust - the Guardian, UK
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This And this make me disappointed in you Dick. Seriously, how do you expect people to start thinking about things when you insult their thoughts? If you treat others like thoughtless sheep, they will be thoughtless sheep, same rule applies if you to treat them like thinking individuals like yourself.

After a year and a half of stupid B.S., my band Left to Question is finally starting to actually act like a real band. More and more we've been getting songs written and written well. We've started to get a better idea of what we are and what kind of music we're making. Our writting methodology is attaining solidity and our individual visions of identity are becoming one, It's the first band I've been in "officially" (I'm one of the founding members, the other is the vocalist) but the guitarist he "found" has become an essential core member indespensible to this project, he's come a long way from when we met him. It's been a long hard road to even feel excited about what I do, but for the first time in my life I feel that I have something to live for and be truly passionate about.

Before this point, I worked negatively against everything. A part of what formed the original concept of the band was the fact that I saw what everyone else was doing as obvious, simple, and predigested. This was a very negative way to see things but that's actually what brought our vocalist and I together. We both felt the same way. but this was my first band, and I had no real idea of what I was doing. I wanted to do a lot of things and I had no idea where they would go and we ended up not getting a single thing done because of it. Finally all of this and other things tore us all apart.

I started doing my own thing for a bit when I felt like it but there was no real motivation. Eventually last January the opportunity came up to join in a cover band. Originally I was just going to replace the bassist they had because he sucked *shrug*. But instead the rest of the band with the exception of the founding member left due to this and that. He eventually got one of his old drummer friends up and now we do gigs about once a month or so.

I learned so much from them.

not really as in they taught me anything overtly but being around in an easy setting doing it for the fun of it helped me both develop my focus, develop my style, and know how Rock 'n Roll is developed. When my guitarist finally was able to make regular trips up here to jam. Using what I had learned we started writing for Left to Question again. Since then each song has been better than the last, with potential.

What Changed in me is that I've become forward thinking, postively minded, and determined. It could be that I've only developed hubris, but that's always been there.

I'm determined to make this something, I'm determined to be something, I'm determined to make everyone else I meet to do the same. This is my passion, I want nothing more.

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